Alive! Help Me!

Like a solar flare in the emptiness of the dark space,

your eyes blazed through my soul,

the room is full, but all I see is the angel in you,

shattering the defences I had built around myself.

Your eyes hold unfathomable sadness,

which your smile betrays not

Thinking I have ever fell in love,

a stretch, it is

like the tsunami and a harmless wave

the difference is mind boggling.

Your tidal waves keep battering against my heart

like a battalion of soldiers fighting an infant child,

a wild horse overtakes me,

my thumping heart rides on a runaway train,

waking up as if free from death's demonly grasp.

Your face casts a soft glow,

invisible to normal perceptions,

smile, like a million diamonds, free for the taking,

hair, shining from the glow of the half submerged sun.

Hidden secrets, beneath the smartness

and humor, I want to unveil,

others look through you,

not sensing or seeing the angel within.

When you rest your hands on my arm,

a shiver from the depths of the abyss,

runs through my veins,

I blackout for what seems like an hour,

in front of all those assembled,

but is only a few seconds,

never before have I felt these emotions,

so raw, unbridled, uncontrolled and euphoric,

your soul sings to me.

Are you my soul mate or my personal hell on earth!

As unexpected, it was,

so was it threatening and tempting,

a deep turmoil brew, inside of me.

I sit beside you, shifting nervously

something inside stirring

like the bloodlust of an immortal,

hungry vampire to warm blood,

threatening to coil and spring.

Afraid to touch the smooth skin,

unable to leave you out of sight,

torn, eaten up from the inside.

As if waking up from an eternal slumber,

my heart is alive again!

will you understand me? Help me?

Like the earth revolving around the sun, I am,

the closer I get, greater is the chance of being burned,

but the farther I go, my soul will slip,

into the cold, empty darkness.

I can feel you most when I am alone,

can feel your spirit in the midst of crowds.

Are you being played out before me,

by someone who is laughing at my longing?

With intentions, innocent,

I will never force you, my angel

down the path which you dislike.

Promises may be showered over the

hopes of obtaining you,

but my word, I will only give,

to keep it or die trying to keep it.

Give me a chance, single,

to be your knight in shining armour.

I go to sleep and wake up, with you in my dreams,

one arm around your slender waist,

the other buried in your glorious hair,

your sensous lips, so intoxicating,

twinkling eyes beckon me forward.

Hoping to take away your sadness,

I pull you closer,

afraid to kiss you,

what if you pull away, revolted?

Rejection, even in the fantasy will destroy me,

I wake up screaming in my mind,

not wanting to finish the dream,

afraid of the nightmare it might hold,

deprived of sleep from the past few days,

I have to know you,

my angel, my love...

This is my first poem after almost 6 to 7 years. Never before have I felt compelled enough to write a poem about anybody till now.